Confessions of a Gay Biker...

With the growth of this damn site and the seeming interpretation that I'm "beyond approach", I thought I would take a few moments to humble myself and let you all know I am far from perfect. Like I've said, I'm just a dude with a website.  I have my interests in kink and leather, but I'm just a dude like you. So, if you wanna get past the glitz and glamour, moving beyond the photography and layout of the site, here's some confessions to let you know I'm only human...

	I work a lot and maybe more than I should, but I'm very "goal focused."
	I'm a bastard in the mornings. I need space and an hour to get my bearings.
	I'm an impulse buyer. It's not often, but when I do, it's to the extreme – like new race suits.
	I profess that I hate living in a dirty house, but I obviously have other priorities since it's always a mess.
	I often battle with myself if this site serves any purpose whatsoever and that it should just disappear.
	I say "dude" way too much.
	I can't get off sexually without gear.
	I am not completely comfortable with my appearance.
	I am actually quite shy and intimidated around guys I like.
	Yes, I struggle socially. I do feel out of place many times in social settings.
	I fear that the image I built up of "KidRacer-X" is bigger than I really am, scaring off potential friends or more.

My Hero, My Wish...

I really need to take this part down from the website or expand on it further, but I'll leave it for now because I'm racing to get this online. It seems so fucking "high school" to talk about it. The real world compared to our desires are two separate things. With that in mind and clear understanding that I'm aware of the difference, here's what I gotta say...

	A guy who's versatile. Although I lean to be dominated, I like to switch. Because sex is important in a relationship, I think it's best to have compatibility in a lot of these areas.
	I dream of the boyfriend who calls me (at home or work) and demands me to be in plastic and leather until he gets home. This same concept rocks my world when we have plans for a movie or dinner, and he wants me in leather (or plastic under my street clothes) when we go out. Now the only way this works is if he's just as straight acting as me. I'm not fem and so I don't like to offer an energy, aura, or behavior that makes people wonder. As I say in my profile down at the bottom, I get hit on by girls a lot, so I enjoy the straight game. But I like doing it because "he" told me to. However, I can't say this behavior applies to all facets of a relationship. There has to be a balance of being practical along with playing.
	Okay, the next kewl thing...I love to be woken in the middle of the night by the slow smothering of a leather pillow because he woke up and has that 3am urge. There's something incredibly erotic about sex when you're in or near that deep slumber state. Is that just me? Do any of you experience that as erotic? Hell, maybe now I sound like an idiot!
	I don't want to be worshiped or smothered (in a bad way). I want a mutual relationship where we both have our independence, interests, hobbies, and friends, but at the end of the day, we're together with each other.